Sunday, April 13, 2014
You know how sometimes a new mommy will feel like she completely lost her personality when she gives birth and feels like she kind of lost her way? Well let me tell you a secret...that is not just for new mommys! Here I am third child in and felt like my personality went buh-bye. I truly thought I knew who I was and was 100 percent confident that I would not change.
For a sec I was worried that I had postpartum depression. I remember warning my husband that if I seemed off please just take me aside...call me out. But postpartum depression didn't seem like a fit for what I was feeling. I was stumbling around all over the place feeling lost but I wasn't unhappy. I still found joy in things like photography, drawing, home decor, homeschooling along with the opportunities that came along with it. I found joy in being around my kids...in fact I felt a longing whenever I was away from ANY of them. And a side note...not that I didn't miss them before but my god there were days I could not wait to get away for an hour!
Another "secret" I want to let you in on....it's okay to not know who you are ALL the time. It's okay to feel like you are starting over even if your the only one starting over while surrounded by people you care for and who care for you.
Monday, March 17, 2014
I am in love all over again. Jacob is such a sweet baby and we are so happy this guy is finally here. I was 43 weeks and 1 day when the active labor finally started. And MY GOD he is an awesome sleeper (thankyou thankyou thankyou!!). He is breast fed and feeds on demand so during the day he eats every 2-3 hours and will nurse for about 15 mins. But at night eat will eat longer and eats every 4 hours. So while my 9 hours of sleep is broken up it is still 9 hours!
I will have more pictures soon!
Sunday, March 2, 2014
I am in absolute baby bliss right now. Our little man, who we have officially named Jacob Wyatt (affectionately grumpy squeaks depending on his mood) arrived february 28th at 7 am weighing 8 pounds 12 ounces. Home birth was quite the experience and I will for sure be sharing. But at the moment I am blogging from my phone for 2 reasons.
1. By midwives request I am on relaxed bed rest. Meaning even though birth went great they request that moms stay either in bed or on the couch for two weeks. I am in bed upstairs with Jacob since everyone else has the sniffles!
2. Jacob absolutely refuses to let me put him down! I can't even go pee without having him freak out. And forget anyone else holding him....
So here I am in bed typing up a quick post to let you know we are doing amazing. Tired, weepy since my milk came in, and I'm all hormonal but amazing still.
Saturday, February 15, 2014
Just saying hey! Still no baby here and my midwives are scheduling a 42 week ultrasound to check to make sure the placenta is doing it's job.
As I said I have plenty of things to write about...just not enough time to write it just yet. See ya when I can!
Saturday, February 1, 2014
Monday, January 6, 2014
**The most important rule of all. NO NEGATIVITY. I mean it. I am a blogger who isn't afraid to block people and delete comments..I really don't give a eff if that makes me seem petty. Yes rights to an opinion blah blah...well I have rights in my mini space here.
Thursday, January 2, 2014
So...updates! Like I said I have been nesting. All of his blankets and things I have received so far are washed and put away. I am making checklists as I go...NO clothing is needed. It's so nice. Anything I have picked up has been because it was a super cute outfit and I wanted it really bad. But did not NEED it. Though I do need some socks. And I prefer to have more shirts with the built in hand covers. I hate those darn mittens! They never stay put and it's just one more thing you have to organize and keep track of. I may have been making my husband crazy with all the youtube videos of babies I have been watching on our TV. I am wondering if that will change once I give birth...not sure if it will because mom videos are my favorites. I still have some adorable things that I purchased that I would like to show...just haven't gotten around to it. Not sure if I want to show it here or in a video.
One exciting thing is I can tell how close we are getting by how my midwives are doing things. They are giving me tips on trying to make sure the baby is head down, I have to buy a kit for them to use during my home birth, and then on my next appointment they will be driving to our home and having my appointment here so they can figure out how to get here. And I learned an interesting fact...I never knew this and now I feel "in the loop" but babies can actually feel things in the womb. Hot, cold, pain...everything. I honestly did not know that. I just thought they went off the mothers emotions. So one of the things the midwives have me doing is either having me put something really cold on the top of my belly or putting something warm on the bottom. A baby prefers their head near warmth so the baby will direct themselves where the warmth is.
You would think I would have a ton of interesting updates...but I don't. Maybe this is why they call this the "home stretch" since at this point it is all about waiting. Which is why the update posts have been further in between. At this stage I will just post if it's something I think is cool or useful!